Everyone that knows me knows that I do not like to get all mushy about my feelings and it is really rare for me to tell you how I feel. I wanted to express to my sister, Whitney Dionne Ellis, how much I love her and of course I cannot tell her because I do not want to cry. This is the best way I could think of to tell her and she will have a constant reminder. This is for you sister.
I remember when mom brought you home. I was so happy to have a sister. For so long it was just me and Pumpkin, we both know how weird he is. Seriously, we were great together but when you came I had someone just like me. I immediately wanted to help take care of you and that’s what I did. Every time we went anywhere you would scream your head off because you hated that car seat. I would pick you up and hold you in my arms to get you to calm down. (This was before they set the safety standards of course.) I can remember dressing you and doing your hair. As I got older you used to want to tag-a-long behind me and I hated that. I did not understand that I was an example for you. I promised myself that I would always take care of you.
You are a very beautiful young woman. I am so thankful and grateful that you came to stay with me and I loved our time together. I really appreciate your help in my time of need. You are not just my sister but you’re my best friend. Now that you are leaving for Indonesia with the Peace Corps, I am afraid. You are going to be so far away, how will I be able to protect you? I won’t be able to talk to you when I want. Nevertheless, I am so proud of you for stepping out on faith and taking this journey in your life. I was so supportive and excited for you when you decided to do this but know that the reality is setting in and the time is drawing near my heart is breaking. I apologize for not being strong throughout. I know that you will be fine and that you have an assignment to fulfill, not just with the Peace Corps. I love you and you better Skype with me as often as you can. I wanted to write so much more but I keep crying so I am going to stop.
Your Big Sis